Today was definitely harder. I was super hungry this morning and Carter wanted a pancake on a stick. For those of you who are not gastronomically enlightened, let me break this down for you: It's a pancake around a sausage link like a corn dog. And it's on a stick. We get them in a big box. So, it was all I could do NOT to grab that thing from him and stuff it into my mouth. I resisted by getting busy making my tropical smoothie. I even added flax seed for colon health. But the whole time all I could think about was breakfast burritos. Mmmmmm, sausage gravy. I drank my smoothie and moved on. My youngest is home with a cold and kept knocking on things to make our dog think someone is at the door and bark. I think I've narrowed down a definite stress/craving connection, because the more crazy I felt, the more pancakes on a stick sounded good. Or cheese. Always a go to for me in the past. I tried a "veggie" cheese-like substance. Yeah, not so much like cheese. Maybe it's good in small doses melted or sprinkled on something, but not for eating a wedge of. Trust me. I think being prepared is going to be a big part of success with this. After being at the school trying to get a group of kids of various ages to listen to me and practice skits, I had a headache (where the hell is my caffeine) and a HUNGER. I bitterly made my family chicken and the whole time I picked fried potatoes out of leftovers (that was sitting next to sausage) and ate it. And drank half a container of organic pomegranate (I just had to walk to my fridge 3 times to see how to spell that) & cranberry juice. By the time I sat down to my healthy salad, I was full. Of juice. Being excited about the foods we eat is important. Will I be excited about this food? I was yesterday. I was pretty smug about that soup I made. Am I just having one of those days? Maybe if I ate the chicken for dinner, I would've felt the same way as I do now. I probably would've eaten the potato AND the sausage if I was eating meat. So, let's look at this in a positive light: if I was still eating as before I would've eaten potatoes, sausage, juice and the chicken dinner. Okay, maybe not the juice. Probably 2 diet Mt. Dew's. So, I did better in that respect. Being prepared is as important now for me as it was then. Whether I'm eating meat or not. I have to remember this when I'm out of sorts (like today) and feel like being lazy. It's not the food's fault, well maybe the pancake on a stick because who thought of that even? If I'm not prepared mistakes can happen, over-eating can happen. I think the excitement for me comes with the preparation and planning. Wow, revelation! Am I growing? My sister, Debbie, always said I had a plebeian taste in food. (Hey, somebody has to eat the bologna). Maybe I'm growing up now? We'll see. My healthy salad tasted like a bowl of weeds. I have a ways to go. Let's look at today's stats:
Hunger: uggghhh. No, too much juice.
Mood: Tired and moody
Health: Other than being stuffed on juice, pretty good. Flax seeds, nature's lufa for your colon!!
I could blame it on the pancake stick of greasy sweet unhealthy goodness that tempted my cravings, but really I think it was just the mood and there will be these times. I have to remember to pre-plan to help lessen the chances of unwise choices (container of juice and fried potatoes) and over eating. Let's stick a fork in this day and say it's over. Now I WILL go soak some beans (I didn't yesterday darn it). Did I mention I'm a fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl?? SIGH.