Technically this was my first "bigger" family eater holiday since becoming vegan. I have run through a gambit of emotions that I've been reflecting on. One thing is that I realize how exactly it's possible to be a chubby vegan. There is a way to eat poorly and still adhere to being a plant based diet. I experienced this as I was all busy preparing for Easter. I really have to force myself to eat veggies. I just don't naturally go for them, especially when I'm distracted. I think I really noticed it because as I mentioned in my last post I was fighting off illness and maybe I was compromised by my low veggie consumption. I was able to fight it off, I'm so amazed even my husband get it! But as I got busy, I noticed my low veggie consumption and the high level of eating "junk" vegan food. I'm getting better, but it's still a chore for me to get in the veggies...I don't know why. I like them better now, but I still have to force myself to remember to get them in. So anyway, potato chips are vegan. I didn't say healthy, but there's definitely no meat or dairy in it. I also found vegan donuts. So like I said, you can be chubby as a vegan. But eating that way causes a nasty chain reaction where you're caught in a web of constant hunger cause you're not eating nourishing food and you end up craving the junk that got you there in the first place. One has to be ever vigilant, whether you're vegan or not. I didn't have a hard time with the ham and foods that surrounded me. I thought I would, but nope. It smelled good, don't get me wrong, but I didn't want it. We went to my Uncle's house, and one of my family members asked if I had to eat this way or could I eat meat for the occasion. My first reaction is one of being indignant. But I thought about it and it's an innocent question from someone who does not feel what I feel, think what I think or know what I know. Yes, I CAN eat meat whenever I want, if I want. But, No I cannot. This is not a quick lose weight diet. This is me now. This is my lifestyle. I thought about it and I chose it. I do not want to eat meat now, not ever again. I like meat, but I no longer find it a viable source of nutrition for me. I'm done. People have said they admire my will power. But it really has nothing to do with that. It takes me no more will power to not eat meat & dairy then it does for me not to throw recycling in the garbage. I became used to it and am convicted it's the right thing for me to do, like recycling. Do I have to recycle? No, I could choose to throw it in the garbage can. In fact it would be easier to do that instead of having two receptacles. But I know it's better for the environment so I choose to recycle. Same with my eating habits. Now lets move on to my not so noble side effect I've been having recently. I have been greedy with my vegan treats with my meat eating family (except my kids who I'm trying to guide into a plant based diet). As much as I'd like everyone to eat a plant based diet, I know that it's not feasible. So it's been really hard when they eat my food beyond a taste. Obviously, I bring dishes to share as my contribution, but for example I brought some vegan candy. My father ate some and offered it to others! They had a whole bowl full of their chocolates, but they had to eat mine too! And it was 5 dollars for a bag!! I know I should be encouraging and giving, but mostly I wanted to yell "get your carnivore paws off my treats old man!!!" See? Not so noble. Oh, well I have to work on this. No one's perfect after all. And I can be rather territorial about my food. Must be an instinctual response that I haven't evolved from fully! LOL. Composting update- I have "asked" my husband if I can get a composting drum. I decided that it would be the best method for me, despite cheaper ways of doing it. It works faster (which appeals to my impatient nature) and it is more convenient for my yard. I'll keep you updated, because big surprise my husband thinks it's dumb. Let's check stats:
Hunger: a little nutrition deprived hunger as I skimped on the veggies.
Mood: pretty happy =)
Cravings: No, except I found myself getting into a salty/sweet cycle of fat doom/
Health: I emerged victorious from fighting off the illnesses hanging about my house!!
Spring is here, and I couldn't be happier. I will keep spring in my heart and embrace the ever changing needs of my body and mind as the season itself does. Spring brings the promise of a better day,of a better me! Be healthy my friends =)